Dad passed away only last night. He was late stages of dementia and hadn't known us for years.
My brother and I were there until the end and I find comfort in that.
Whilst I slept well last night, I feel numb today and eventually went for a drive to a local garden centre. Managed to have lunch.
Grief is such a funny thing really, I'm feeling differently for my loss of dad, to how I felt when mum passed away 11 years ago and then my first grandson, who died of cot death.
When mum passed away, I felt she was with me but I don't feel like dad is.
I feel so very lonely, even though both my lads (21 & 33) live with me. Before Christmas I was going to join a group such as WI however, never have.
So I'm here in the hope for support and friendship.