Hello there. Had the funeral two days ago. It was extremely well attended but the bit where you had to stand by the memorial flowers for folks to give condolences was hard - no that not so true it was all hard and felt unreal. Today is the eve of four weeks since he passed. Its getting harder not easier. Feeling so low, so lonely and not coping. I don't want to feel like this at all. My sons were with me throughout otherwise I don't know what I would have done but they have gone back to their lives now.
Is anyone else experiencing intense anxiety, especially when out and about. My friend called round today and we went for a pub meal, I was literally shaking when we got back. The same thing happened yesterday when I drove my son to the train station. This is not me at all and it is scaring me a bit.