Hi, I agree with Karen's, hospital is possibly not the best place to go, find somewhere with happy memories or just peaceful and calming, like you I was made to clear my Mums house very quickly by my siblings, the very next day in fact, but I managed to get myself little worthless things so I have something of her around me, I am sorry for your loss and please don't try to fit into normal, there is no normal, we all have to get through somehow and the people on this forum are truly wonderful and will help you through each step