Sorry, I only just saw this, Lyn I was upset last night I felt if I couldn't express how I feel on here, then I really had nowhere to go, I have been thinking about it all day and I know, like me, I think anger and frustration makes you react sometimes you normally wouldn't, I didn't for one second think you was trying to upset me, it's just, like me, it is so raw for for you and you project what you are feeling onto others, the thing that really really scared me that having found this forum I could no lo her use it without people judging me, I don't want to feel the way I feel but at the minute I can't help it, and us so good to share on here and feel others understand, and I truly hope in turn I will be able to help someone, don't back away from the site or try and deal with it alone, we all need each other, I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad and I hope you continue to use this wonderful place to help yourself heal, as I know your Dad would have wanted, like my Mum, but we all need help sometimes x