Hello,
I’m so sorry for you loss. It’s just agony. It’s nearly two years since my mum died - my little girl was exactly 6 months old and my son was just about to turn 3 a month later. My husband is in the Military and was deployed at the time. I have no idea how I managed to find the strength to go on but I did and you will too. Your children are your future and the same wee people that wear you out will give you the strength and love you need to go on. It’s very soon to have to deal with Christmas. I couldn’t hide my grief from my kids and my eldest was very close to my mum. I just explained that when you love someone so very much it’s normal to feel sad for a long time after they die. We have a ‘granny star’ In the sky now. Finding time to grieve is hard. I’m still grieving. Everyday, but it is getting easier. Get help and support when you can, your going to feel overwhelmed, physically and emotionally exhausted as the wee ones demand your energy. You can’t switch off the pain, you have to wrk through it and the kids can help you to feel happiness again xx big hugs xx