I sadly lost my nan 4 weeks ago. I was with her when she went and I have been to visit her since. We have the funeral this week and I'm ment to be reading the Eulogy, but as It gets closer and family members keep getting me to change things in it, I'm becoming more not willing to do it! I know if I say I cant do it. Then the vicar will or my uncle will give it ago! I just feel so many emotions that I'm getting so annoyed with all my family.
I guess I feel like I don't have much support, but I'm ment to be the strong one in the family but feeling far from that right now. I don't really talk to anyone about it an that's kind of not helping. But I don't know how to start it. My husband is at work and there not happy about him having full day off for funeral so he just have half day off. I just really need him with me as we have 3 young kids and I feel I cant grieve at the moment and I need to. I just want time in the day on my own, so I can visit my nan again for one last time.
I don't really know what I except to hear from anyone. I'm just hoping by writing this it will help me.