Thank you for your kind replies xI am feeling a bit Better than i was. I never knew anxiety could be so terrifying . I feel like I saw a bit of rock bottom , and in the end I had to resort to medication for now .I am a believer in reiki as well and that gave me the courage and confidence to start the tablet and look at it in a positive way . I know i need to ease pressures and make some change sx I am really struggling to see my dad as he deteriorates. I have had to ease up with visits for my own well being xtrying to remind myself that it does not mean i love him any less x