Hello there,
Yesterday was the 1st anniversary of the death of my eldest brother who passed away unexpectedly last year, he was the 3rd brother I've lost in 3 years and I'm finding it difficult to cope. I have good friends & a boyfriend who have been supportive in many ways but it's heavy and no one seems to understand as they've not experienced grief of somebody close so I often feel very alone. My emotions range from sadness, happiness, anger, disbelief and hopelessness. I'm currently feeling very angry and very lonely and find that I am pushing those I love away. I feel at such a loss with my life and can't seem to focus on anything positive anymore.