Hi Jane, my beloved husband died suddenly 6 weeks ago today. I feel your pain, bewilderment and Loss. I will find it hard, I will find it lonely, I will find it unfair...but I will survive. My darling Husband would be so unhappy to think I would not. I have no children, no animals. I only ever needed my Berry, so really no other support! I also run a small bed and breakfast,now on my own, which is full at this time of year, so I have to act a part. I wonder if grief will take over at the end of the season. I turned to the forum so I could be myself rather than a 'hostess'. We will survive, we have to survive, to make our past lives part of our future. We will keep their memories alive only by keeping on, and celebrating their very existence and happiness that they bought to our lives xx