Hi Adrian, I am really sorry to hear of your loss and sorry that you have had to join us here.
My wife passed away on 6th December 2016, i go through the pain of loosing her everyday, like you, i have had many days, where i have sat and thought, what is the point, but honestly, that will not solve anything, it certainly will not bring my wife back, or you, having these same thoughts, will not bring your partner back.
I have said this many times to people, Grief does not come with a user manual, we are all going through this horrendous journey, none of us knows what to do, but believe me, there are people here, that will help you, they will not judge you, as we are all going through the same.
The loneliness, emptiness and silence are very hard to deal with, but please give this forum a chance, there are really wonderful people here, who will listen. Not saying it's going to be easy, because it won't, but please stay here with us.
Take care