Hi my name is Michelle. I'm new to forums and don't know where to start. I lost my mum on 9.8.15 after she had a fall out of bed. We didn't know but mum had banged her head, she went on to have 5 aracnoid brain hemorages resulting in her life sadly ending far to early. She was only 61 year old. I had a holiday booked with my partner a month later to thailand, which we reluctantly went on. This was the holiday of a lifetime, a month in thailand. If I'm honest, this was a much needed holiday after losing mum. Sadly on the 22nd of April 2016, I woke to find that my partner who was only 46 years old had sadly passed away during the night. If losing mum wasn't bad enough, I had just lost my sole mate and best friend. I was made homeless for a week with my two children who were 16yrs and 9yrs, all because of a sudden death. I then got the news on the 5.6.16 that my close friend lost her battle with cancer aged 43. That was three people in less than a year. I though nothing more could possibly happen to my family. Then on the 10th Oct 2016 my children's biological father passed away at the age of 43. What had this family done to deserve all this hurt and loss. I wake each day with feelings of intense anger and find it hard to control. I look at my children and feel so bad that they are going through so much, the uncontrollable crying. I'm not sure what to do or think any more. I am grateful that I have life. To many people are taken to young. Thanks michelle