Hi, I've just joined and hoping this site will help me through my grief
My dad died on 19th March, I knew he was deteriorating so the week before he died I decided to stay at my parents full time to help mum and spend time with dad. I had wrote a letter for dad as no one was talking about what was going to happen and things needed to be said, it was a short letter telling him he was the best dad a daughter could ever ask for and how much I loved him etc but the time never felt right and he passed before I could give it to him😔
The night before he died me and mum sat and chatted with him for around 20 minutes, he was talking about the next day and even though he hadn't eaten for two days as he felt so sick we thought he had a few weeks left. He woke up at 5am and I heard him go to toilet (he really was struggling and breathless) then talking to mum, he asked for a solpadol and mum said "are you ready for me to turn lights off" he replied "yes" mum came in to my room at 8am and said "I think your dad has gone" he had, me and mum were sleeping as he would have been taking his last breaths 😢
Now I feel this unbearable loss and to make matters worse his funeral not till 19th April as there was a delay getting medical certificate as dad hadn't seen a doctor in the last ten days, we are still struggling to register death now but funeral directors still booked funeral because they said it should be sorted by then! My dad was 69 and I'm 44 but even so I was a real daddy's girl, I can't breathe every time I think I will never see or speak to him again. Sorry for such long comment Xxx