Thanks all for your lovely posts. Speaking here and to others I know, I understand the significance of the funeral in both saying goodbye to Simon, and in being symbolic of the end of our chapter in life together. I also really get the prospect of in the future feeling 'normal' but 'different'. I am already feeling that difference.
I am going to a conference in Rome with work this June. A colleague yesterday asked if I am looking forward to it? I would have normally (that word again) been able to say 'yes', but had to reply that, at present, it is indeed day-by-day for me at this moment.
The people I work with are mainly all young enough to be my children and, as far as I know, have not experienced bereavement. It is really helpful for me to have people I know outside of work and on this forum who understand the devastating and relentless process one has to go through following death of a loved one.
Much love
Badger