Its my birthday tomorrow and Dad it would be your birthday on Friday. But this year we are going to scatter your ashes instead. I really don't want to do that, I just want to see you again and wish you a happy 61st birthday, instead of my last memory being the day I saw you for your 60th birthday.
I miss you so very much, I don't know what to do with myself. How can it nearly be a year already - it feels like only yesterday I got that phonecall.
I miss you Dad and I love you so much more than you probably ever even knew xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Just needed somewhere to write this down to my dad - how have others coped with scattering the ashes of loved one? I'm struggling to even think about it - it terrifies me - does that sound stupid??