Hi Jenny. Welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry to hear if your loss.
Grieving does get harder but people think we should be over it in a few weeks or months. (I used to be one of those people. I thought it took a fortnight). I don't think we even realise exactly what we have lost for a few months and even now, nearly a year on, I am still finding things I miss almost every day.
It does get easier to cope but it's a long journey we are on.
Wishing you strength.