:hug:hubby I know you don't want to hear it but it is still early days you need to have patience with yourself,which I know is difficult.I think the meltdowns are necessary otherwise we would explode that's why you feel more able to cope afterwards,but they do become less frequent and powerful eventually.
Rosaleen,I know how painful Brocken ribs are,its difficult to imagine unless you experience it just how it can affect every move,and after any illness or injury you get hit again by the loss and the missing,because no matter how well you cope at the time,you don't want to have too,because they should be here taking care of you ,little things like boiling the kettle,or being sympathetic,even not being sympathetic but teasing joking.I found as well I was thinking how will I manage if something happens that I can't cope with myself.I fell down the stairs and don't hurt myself badly but it was there.what if I had,who would know who would find me.even if they did come looking if the door was locked would they just assume I was away.On a practical level I changed the staircarpet and took to carrying my phone everywhere even round the house.At an emotional level its like a lot of other things you just get used too it and hope it doesn't happen.