Hello everyone, I'm Didi and lost my dad only yesterday evening.
Feeling numb at moment. It wasn't out the blue, dad was in later stages of dementia and didn't know me or brother for years.
Whilst we knew he was 'end of life,' we were thankful that we were there for his end.
Yesterday morning I went for a medical and passed it, to get my provisional licence to train as a coach/bus driver. Didn't feel like going as still getting over the flu like illness, dad and other things going wrong this year!
Glad I did go as its a dream of mine, to become a professional driver and provide excellent customer service.
Had to take myself out today, treated myself to lunch at a local garden centre.
I have friends, however, like to be with my animals. Have both my lads live with me, they are independent.
Though I feel so very lonely. I know I'm grieving and it takes time, I managed better when mum died, also my first grandson of cot death.
But this time it's different, don't know if it's because of the illness and feeling run down?
Tomorrow I'm having a tooth out, which the appointment has been cancelled a couple of times through illness.
