Welcome to the forum walofb1. I am so sorry to hear of your recent loss.
Please do not feel you have nobody to talk to. During the early months I felt the same but I started to phone the Samaritans and found they were of great help. There was something comforting in being able to tell someone neutral about how I was feeling and being able to release some of the emotions. I still contact them now occasionally when I have bad days.
It may not seem like it now but it does slowly get easier as we learn to cope.
Wishing you strength