Hi all
I'm not sure why I've come here really. My dad died 2 years ago and I thought I was coping okay. He was my best friend and growing up I spent a lot of my time with him, going to football matches every Saturday together.
He had Parkinsons Disease but it didn't stop him enjoying life even when he had to start using a wheelchair to get around.
Then after overcoming bowel cancer years ago, he was diagnosed with liver cancer and given 3 months to live.you world just came crashing down. I had recently got engaged and we brought our wedding forward so he could be there.
Anyway he defied all the odds and lived for almost 2 years. During that time we went on family holidays and spent as much time with him as possible.
I was with him when he died and it did feel like a part of me went with him.
But I have coped, or so I thought. Then last week it should have been his 70th birthday. Between that and Christmas I have been a mess. I've tried to carry on but after a row with my husband this morning I have totally lost it. I can't stop crying and all I can think about is my dad. He loved Christmas and made it so much fun.
Now I'm sat alone crying and looking at old photographs of him.
I know there is nothing anyone can do or say but I just thought writing down how I feel might help. Thank you to anyone who had bothered to read my ramblings.
Rach xx
