HI I am so sorry for your loss, sometimes when we have so much else going on in our lives, loss gets pushed aside for us to deal with at a later date, and when that time finally comes, perhaps, like in your case, due to a further loss, it hits us twofold. As someone close to me said recently, be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to grieve, if you want to cry, cry. sending hugs and comfort. X