Hi All,
really needing to find some way of dealing with the past few years to be honest. Firstly at 42 years old my Mum died of Leukaemia in 2013 and then in January 2014 my Dad was killed in a car crash and the April 2014 my lovely Mother-in-Law died of cancer.
we then has to deal with the court case with regards to the man who killed my Dad, what my brother and I were going to do with the house.
I'm finding it hard to say how I feel to be honest. My husband and I sold our flat in London, left our jobs and moved into my family home in the Midlands. It is lovely being home, but I really am finding it hard to deal with being an orphan, I just want to understand why these 3 amazing people were taken away from me within 10 months of each other. I also need to try to find a way to deal with the horrific manner in which my Dad died and I just cant. I'm still very angry, very tearful, very reactive to situations and find it hard to cope with small issues.
I learnt to drive while I've been up here (which I am very proud of, considering what happened to my Dad, although he was a motoring journalist so I did need to learn :) )
I took 7 months off when we moved up here, I am now working and I like my job a lot and the people I work with, its my personal life that I feel I have no real control over and I am waiting for the next big drama to happen. I miss chatting with my Mum and Dad and I feel so angry they are both gone.
Thanks for taking the time to read Clair