I lost my partner 4 weeks ago. It was very sudden and I'm devastated. It has been traumatic, as I found him and cpr did not work. I tried so hard. The paramedics tried so hard . It's been hell for 4 weeks, 2 coroner's involved, autopsy, inquest, inquiry, and we've only just been allowed to have the funeral. He'd been planning to propose the week after on my birthday which I'm comforted to know we were thinking the same, but devastated that we never got that chance.
His family are not local, he was divorced, I've had it all to sort, his mother wanted me to, his daughters have been involved from a distance but they are young. The family have been very kind and have not pushed me out, I know they could as I'm not next of kin. We weren't living together, but have spent just about every day for nearly 2 years together. We were each other's second chance. He was my world. I am heart broken without him
This is so very cruel, and so hard to deal with. I'm so totally on my own, friends are often not available. The only person keeping in touch is his mum, she rings every night, she's elderly and cannot cope with me crying. I think I'm losing the plot, there are desperate moments.