Hi Jayne, sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad, it sounds like your mind is all over the place at the moment, when we lose someone close to us this is normal, and will take time. It can be so difficult and we get all sorts of emotions, this is also normal, but eventually with time, we begin to remember the good times, and slowly learn to accept the loss, and slowly we learn how to manage knowing they will not be part of our future, and I know only too well how hard that can be.
I wish you strength during this sad time.
Regarding your Mum reading posts Jayne, yes, I can confirm that anyone can read many of the posts on here without even being a registered member, so no need to sign in, though obviously to post and see certain sections of the site then one does need to register. Though I'm sure your Mum would understand.