My mum passed away suddenly in July from a heart attack and im just totally devastated. There was no chance to say goodbye. I still cant believe shes gone and I miss her so much. As time goes on, Im finding the evenings really hard as I always used to speak to her most nights and I just feel as each day passes she is further and further away from me. Some days are a real struggle, but my kids get me through. Im a single mum and I feel so lonely as I have no one to share my feelings with. She would pick my kids up from school when I was working and its still hard her not being there when I get home from work. I feel I have a massive void in my life, especially as she was my rock. I would do anything just to spend just 5 more minutes with her. She always said she wanted to go quickly without a fuss and she got her wish, but its the devastation left behind. We are now having to sort out her things and its just so upsetting, knowing it wont ever be the same without her here.