Hi Sue, so very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved husband, it seems lung cancer is claiming a lot of our loved ones. In fact your comments echo my own circumstances a little, as my wife of 49yrs Ann passed away very suddenly from undiagnosed lung cancer in April, they had been telling us she was 100% clear for previous 2yrs, and they discovered it was terminal literally a couple days before she died. She attended a cancer follow-up outpatient clinic, where a CT scan revealed the truth on the Friday, she passed away Monday morning.
W know how you are feeling Sue, many of us here have gone through the same thing, it's been 6mths for me and I still have trouble accepting it.
It's still very raw for you Sue, and I wish there were some words I could write to ease your grief, if there were I'd likely use them myself. A frequent expression used on here 'Is To Take It A Day At A Time' because that's all we can do. Many of us still cry and grieve for our wife or husband, as time passes it does get easier to cope, I still have major crying sessions when I get deep in thought, it's normal, we all get them.
I'm currently trying to socialise a little more, as my wife was my best friend, we did everything together, so yes when they are gone the emptiness left behind is enormous, indeed, unless it's happened to you, people don't fully understand the impact it has. I'm pleased to hear that family and friends are being supportive Sue, unfortunately my 2 sons seem to have disappeared since their Mum died, but my daughter Jo phones every day even though she lives 240miles away in Cornwall. It appears there may be some truth to the old saying "A Daughters a daughter all your life". If you have sons Sue, I hope they keep in touch more than mine do...
A big hug from me Sue, we all need a hug from time to time.
Best wishes........ Brian