Hi all, I'm Hayley. I lost my partner of 6 years on the 13th September, the past four weeks have been the hardest I've ever endured but I've had to keep it together for the blessing he left me, our beautiful 4 year old daughter. I've never experienced the death of someone so close and at the minute the emotional rollercoaster I'm on and pain in feeling is just unbearable. I've been trying to concentrate on my little girl who is so unsettled by the whole thing. She seemed to be coping so well the first few weeks but past few days she seems so sad and preoccupied, and is coming out with questions that I didn't even realise a 4 year old could come up with. I think maybe she is starting to realise daddy's not coming back. We've planted a rose bush in the garden in his memory and have started to make a memory box too. To be honest I don't know what to say to her sometimes when she speaks of her dad, do we continue the conversation at the risk she becomes really upset (as she has been doing) or divert her attention to something else????Her school is arranging counselling sessions for her but could be up to 8 weeks until she can b seen.
