Hi,
I lost a friend/colleague this summer and have been struggling to come to terms with how people deal with loosing someone. I have been very fortunate so far in my life in that I have not lost anyone prematurely, my only other experience of loosing someone close to me has been the loss of my great grandfather but this seemed to make sense to me, he was in his late 80's and had had a full life and already had a heart operation years before his death. But the death of my colleague was a complete shock, maybe because of a naivety on my part that because he had been taken to hospital he was going to get better.
He was a really nice man, he always had time for people and did most of my training and generally looked after me at work, he was like a work dad to me. I don't think he had eaten a green fruit pastel in the whole 2 and a half years we knew each other, when I started I told him I loved fruit pastels but only the green ones so I never bought a packet, every time he had a pack even if I had gone out for lunch I'd get back and he would have left me the two from the pack. I just don't understand how he can be there one day and then gone he went to the doctors because he was short of breath, he didn't realise he was having a heart attack but then he survived it only to pass away shortly after in hospital
I just really miss him