Sending a welcome hug to you xx
I llost my partner suddenly after being together 51 years, so i can understand the despair, pain and loneliness that you are feeling, it is still early days for you hun, you can only take it a day at a time each day is different, people say keep going it will get better, but in my experience you get better from an illness, but grief isnt an illness, so theres no getting better from that, but what you do is adjust and life starts to get easier and we learn to cope with our loss, but please keep posting to us on here im sure you will fibd some small comfort from knowing you arent alone xxxx