I'm really sorry this is such a long one, and I don't know where to turn, my dad died in January, he took his own life, I haven't really felt all that much about it in alot of ways just numb, anyway alot has happened in the last few months beside dad I had a stalker following after his death and last month found out I was pregnant,baby didn't grow and I was absolutely devestated, it's been three weeks and I stil am devestated, sil just announced she's pregnant and that was like another kick to along line of kicks, my boyfriend doesnt understand how much this has effected me, he's usually very understanding and I know it's been hard on him, I just he says I'm crazy, and selfish and I'm a horrible person and I don't know what to think anymore, I just want to be normal, im nice or so I thought I feel like my life is falling apart around me some days I can't even bring myself to get out of bed but I make myself, I go to work, I try hard every day; my life is slipping away from me and I don't know what to do anymore, I went to the drs and got pills which seem to be working but this miscarriage has really hurt beyond belief, I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm so worried thst I've gone crazy, my heart aches and I'm so lost, how do I be happy, I need to be or am going to loose everything