So sorry to hear of your loss - it is such a difficult thing to bear. I have found that this forum can provide a space to share feelings that sometimes its difficult to express to friends and family and the great thing about it is we are all in the same situation, the details may be different but we truly understand what grief and loss feels like. It can be hard for people who haven't had that experience to fully understand so the forum can be a massive support. Take care of yourself.