I'm not that brilliant myself Hubby, I never played speed chess IOW games where moves are timed, I annoyed my sons when we used to play the odd game years ago because I take so long over moves...lol
I probably need to get back into playing more, as I seem to have lost interest in many things since the loss of my wife.
Often I awaken in the morning, and wonder for a few seconds whether it was all a nightmare, and then reality hit's home, and I have to face another day alone, knowing I shall never see her again..........it's so hard.