Hello, feeling low. It is 4months ago tonight since I lost my mum. Prior to the phone call my dad did to tell me that my mum had collapsed I was having a Chinese which I usually enjoy but that night I didn't like the taste and I also had a great pain in my back then after the phone rang the pain in my back disappeared and my partner drove me to my parents. They were working on my mum after she had a heart attack in the lounge. I sat in the dining room with my partner and brother. We followed the ambulance to the hospital. Sat in a side room, then was seen by a doctor the next time I saw my mum she was on a ventilator oh how I hoped. The doctor said that night that they would fit a pacemaker. Great I could live with that as long as I got mum back. Alas after the weekend of sedation my mum was not responding lik she should be when being brought off it. My mum was slowly leaving us and I was couldn't string a sentence together. Then on the 23rd April my mum slipped away. Sorry if it seems garbled.