hi BT, i lost my father to a sudden heart attack 18 months ago. He had sucessfully completed radiotherapy for cancer, given the all clear, then that happened a months later....
I remember feeling just lost..so sad, shocked.. I found it hard as i felt i had to be strong for my mum.
I promise in time it will start to get a bit easier to cope, think of memories. I remember thinking I will never cope, but you can start to smile again. Its so true, small steps, time...some days will be sadder than others
I now keep a little book on me and if I think of a memory of him when out and about, I note it down. It's taken time but i like to think of memories.
I remember reading something that resonated with me, it was along the lines that wouldn't it be good to try and enjoy life again, smile, laugh, relax, eat good food, walk in the sunshine, see trees, fields, see friends etc. its hard, but I am trying.