I lost my husband and soulmate six weeks ago almost to the hour. He battled with such courage and stoicism, and gave everything he had to be with us as long as he could. The last three months were spent in hospital with him and eventually at home where he died peacefully with myself and his girls and my sister all around him. I miss him terribly and look for any sign.he is still here with me. I feel guilty, angry, defensive, numb. I find i need to be busy and escape from our house. I don't know why I'm writing this as nothing I can write will make any difference to him being gone!