Hello Angela, you and I are the same age, I understand it's a difficult age, we have been with our husbands for such a long time and suddenly alone. I do have family but that doesn't take away the feeling of being on my own. I am nearly 6 years into my new life, I remember the first days of utter despair which then turned into days of tears, 24 hours a day. Now I am OK, miss my husband every day but have a new routine to my life and I cope with it all, it's a new kind of coping and it doesn't ever take away memories or love but it does let me get through the days. I still have very down days but I think I always will - and that's OK really because how could you love someone and live with them for so long and not miss them. I hope you find the peace on this site that it gave me xx