I've been the full time carer for my Mother the past three years or so, she sadly passed away on 21st June and yesterday was her funeral, it was a really lovely send off and one she well deserved, the Funeral Director and Celebrant were absolutely fantastic and made the whole thing run very smoothly, lots of family and friends attended (she must have been a very popular lady), afterwards we had drinks, food and a good chat about happier times at a local social club.
Over the past three weeks I have been busy sorting out the finances and funeral etc., now it is all over I am now beginning to think of the loss and wandering where I go from here, my Mum was my life for the past 3+ years so I have to find myself a new life, but finding where to start, now that's the question.
My Mum had a blood test in January which proved abnormal, after a few tests and a scan she was diagnosed with a tumour on one of her Kidneys, the consultant did not know how far the cancer had progressed, and she was too old and frail to survive any of the treatments a younger person would have, so over the last few months she had gone off her food and drink and had become very frail, then on the morning of June 18th I found her collapsed on her bedroom floor, she was rushed to Hospital where they found her cancer had spread, she also had a major urinary infection, all they could do was keep her as comfortable as possible until the end, the doctors and nurses on her ward were great, they made her at ease until in the early morning of June 21st she sadly died, but she was no longer in pain or suffering, I was very devastated for the first few days, then got busy with the organising, now the days just feel empty and grieving has begun.
I feel a little better after writing this, it has helped in some way to share my thoughts in this message, it may be a slow process, but I think in time I shall try to think of the good times and attempt to ease from my mind her suffering.
