I am glad to find this forum. Briefly my Dad was diagnosed with cancer in April 2015. At that point I was devastated and Dad deteriorated very quickly and we were told to expect no more than 6 months.
We live in South Wales and dad in Yorkshire so we began visiting every 2 weeks.
Keeping as short as possible I am 62 but am still a daddy's girl and I began to grieve as soon as I knew his prognosis. I thought that this would make things easier when the end came.
Dad passed on 10th June, I have nightmares still about the way he died. As he had asbestos cancer there was an inquest and the funeral eventually took place on 27th June. I feel that at my age I am not supposed to grieve as much. It's one month tomorrow and I am dreading it so much.
I am very sorry if this post is too long