I'm sure I have mentioned before that I don't believe in spirits or anything after death, I respect others beliefs but for me death is final and my husband was the same.
The thing is the last few weeks as I've walked the dog, which I do around 6am when it's really quiet and it's just me, the dog and my thoughts (I always have the radio on in my ears) I have been getting emotional, Terry filling my mind as he always does, I have been getting shivers, there is no pattern to them but they always happen as I'm most upset & sad, if I wasn't such a sceptic I would definitely say he was trying to comfort me. I wrote this off as my mind playing tricks and just my sadness manifesting itself but then a couple of nights ago as I was putting my autistic son to bed he was talking out loud to his dad, which he sometimes does and he said "it's alright dad I'm going to bed now I'm going to be a good boy and let mum get some sleep" and he physically shivered, I've never seen him do that before he kept on talking to me and I didn't say anything to him about it. But this has really got to me, it's just coincidence and my mind is playing tricks saying "but what if it is him?"
I'm finding it upsetting and it fills my mind & now I find myself waiting for it to happen. I've had grief before, losing both my mum & dad & whilst I was sad I had Terry to get me through it but this time there's no support. I know I'm rambling a bit but wanted to tell someone, don't feel I could tell my friends, feel a bit foolish for even thinking it.