Wish I was that organised in a morning I went back to sleep this morning so the stretches involved in leaping up and running round to get to work were far from gentle.On less rushed days I have done the mindfulness thing,of looking around rather than just in front,I got so used too it I once spotted an injured blackbird flapping around on the floor there were loads of people milling around some looking in the shop window but no one else had seen it right at their feet,until I started trying to stop it going back into the road.Don't know if its mindfulness or just that I,m geared up to wildlife where others more to humans,as we become more disassociated from the natural world.
If I,m honest I have become quite depressed again this week,I know why but not how to shake it off.Keith's kids want to scatter his ashes somewhere completely alien to my life with him, They havnt been in touch for years so i knew there was a reason .We have agreed to split them and I will keep half , so its not really that in itself but the fact that they have moved on new lives new relationships/careers etc etc which is as it should be, but I,m still stuck . Oh well its been brewing awat for a few days but I,have said it now so maybe that will help clear the fog.