I have been offered a job I interviewed for last week. It's a drop in money but I'm so unhappy where I am that I took the job. I think it'll be the perfect job for me but instead of feeling happy & excited I just feel so sad, I've been sobbing since I decided to take the job. It's the first big decision since Terry died. I gave in my notice on Friday, my boss was out of the office all day but she phoned me in the evening. I didn't answer, she messaged me to call her but I said I would speak to her Monday I couldn't face speaking to her.
I'm dreading going in tomorrow, I don't want to dissect why I'm leaving, I'm going because I need a change but also I'm cross at the way I was treated when Terry died. I had to go back to work 3 days after the funeral, not one of the partners (it's a doctors practice) said sorry for your loss, I'm a patient there too & my doctor didn't even give me a call when he died to see how I was, if I was coping ok & they know I have no family around me & I have to care for two autistic children on my own, so much for the caring profession
I feel like I don't matter i am so pleased I found what I think will be a really good job for me but this sadness & crying is almost as bad as the funeral, I wish I could pull myself out of it, I miss Terry so much I can hardly bear it today, it's six months but right now it feels like 6 hours
sorry if I've gone on a bit