I had counselling through my gp not cruse but as Sue says it is a personal thing,we are all different and so are the counsellors.I was lucky with mine,but after the second session of me sitting crying and feeling worse I thought it was not going to be any use,but I persisted and it was worth it.
Ii also felt guilty about calling the ambulance when my husband wanted to go home so I am repeating what some one here said at the time.Imagine how guilty you would feel if you hadn't because you would always wonder whether there might have been a different outcome if you had.She was right,All we can ever do is what seems right at the time none of us knows what's going to happen.
Your mum would know all those things you want to say,and that you did what was best out of love for her,because if it had been the other way round that is exactly what she would have done for you.