I do think bereavement changes you, I'm certainly not the person I was before I lost my dad. I guess we're always changing and growing in life, never staying the same, but a big loss shakes us to our foundations
It's a hard journey, it will feel like a rollercoaster, just when you think you've got the hang of it another emotion will slap you in the face, but you can do it and it does get easier to cope xx