Over whelmed by everything today. Our wedding anniversary, I coped ok with Terry's birthday last week but our anniversary today has hit me like a thunderbolt, just feel heart broken, it's been 4 months & I've been coping but as soon as I'm alone today I just can't stop crying.
Only one family member got in touch, part of me feels cross that no one bothered but then I don't want to even look at anyone today let alone speak to them.. Work was hell.
I have to try and keep things normal for the kids and I don't want it to be a miserable house as Terry was always full of fun & everyone's friend but it's so hard, looking forward is unbearable it's just a big expanse of emptiness, I don't know what to do & I always know what to do ....