Hi All,
This is my first post and I'm not sure what I should expect to get from being here. It's not what I would ever have imagined doing, but here I am, a widower at 54. I'd also like to begin by offering my sincere condolences to all on this site. If we can share the pain, maybe we can reduce it a little.
My wife died on 5th September 2022 after a brain haemorrhage. She was 55, rarely had headaches, fit, barely a grey hair and not a single wrinkle. She was my world for 22 years and fate dealt the cruelest blow to me and my 2 teenage daughters, who were her best friends.
Coming to terms with this is just so hard and I miss her every minute of the day. I'm trying to be strong and compartmentalise work and the awful cold admin that's needed now, but I get so many triggers that take me back to the depths of despair every time.
I'm sure it's a common theme, but, waking up in the morning is like Groundhog Day, but a horror movie. Mornings are just a hideous cycle of triggers and tears and more recently, anger.
We have had the most incredible amount of support though, from family, friends, colleagues and associates. Without this I would have not been able to cope.
Things are still very raw, and I know it's going to be a long road to recovery, so, thanks in advance for any support provided here.
Matt