Hello B and welcome.
I do hope you get some response to this post, as due to a major forum closure issue that lasted for weeks, many members have gone away thinking it was permanent.
I'm so very sorry for your loss, boy do I know how much you are hurting, and yes feeling your life to has ended too is very normal.
I can't give you the words now that will heal the pain it's far too soon and you are still very raw to accept them anyway.
But I have done this now for well over 20 years, and in that time heard all one could ever learn and hear about bereavement and the human emotions it brings.
So I can promise you B no matter what you think now that life has ended for you, one day maybe not as soon as you would like, things will look brighter, and the intense pain you feel right now will ease as your broken heart begins to heal with time.
May I wish you great courage and peace of spirit in the coming days ahead.
Dave forum owner.