I've been up all night,it's US time now 3:42 am, thinking about my brother my only sibling . The loss is profound. I am devastated still. Though it's been 7 years, I am preoccupied by his death, I hate to even write that word,it's so final. My father's death was 11 years ago. I miss my father so very much. He was a good father. But the loss of a sibling and an only sibling is a different kind of loss. I'm not undermining my father, because parents normally pre-decease their children. And so I thought me and my brother would be together, I'd never thought in a million years that my brother would not be here with me. I will be alone and it is frightening to say, to think, it's on my mind all the time. I miss my brother beyond words can say.