Feeling so sad & low today, Sunday's are so hard. Everything goes on in our family as it always did, I suppose it's because I was/am the organiser of everything, so although the kids miss their dad nothing's really changed, everything's running the same.
I'm lucky I suppose as I didn't have any problem sorting out all the paperwork, organising the funeral, I had no help as I have no family here but it's what I've always done, letters addressed to Terry don't upset me it's just something else to deal with.
But I miss him so much, I feel so empty, I just want to sit & hold his hand & hear his laugh. It's so lonely, my parents are long gone and now Terry has gone it feels like there's no one on my side, of course my kids love me but I'm the carer (which is how it should be) I just wish there was someone looking out for me. That sounds selfish, missing being someone's number one, I suppose