Hi, I'm no advisor however I'm glad you popped back in. If this forum helped the first time then hopefully it can help again. The chain of events lately would certainly remind you of events gone by and perhaps that's why these feelings are so strong, you're being reminded of all the feelings all over again.
Hopefully happiness can be found somewhere within this current feeling of loneliness, you can be alone but never be lonely the same as you can feel lonely within a big group of friends.
Talking to people is probably one of the most difficult things to do, reaching out also can be difficult and you've already managed both albeit via keyboard text and with that managing to express yourself.
Being of a similar age and losing my dad on St Andrews day a few yrs ago and my loving partner a few months ago I can honestly say I have found comfort and answers to how I manage and reflect on my own feelings from reading through threads on here.
We all manage our feelings and reactions to situations so differently and that is the biggest obstacle to overcome because nobody else knows how you actually feel or what reactions you give, we know what the emotions are, we know what loss is and we know there's no answers in a book.
Live Love Laugh, yeah right but I'd like to return to this place one day yet I do not know how far I must travel to reach it, take care. Gordon.