Hello Rebecca, so very sorry for what has been a very traumatic time for you,hoping you will read this post,as I have noticed that many of us do not reply,just check in and view,which I totally understand,we all have a way of coping and so very much want to reach out but don't know how to....I still am in torment when my husband went into hospital and was put on life support,which went on for 66 days,I know this was something he never wanted,and he said to me many times,look love don't ever let me be on a machine keeping my body alive ,switch everything off...I couldn't and was there until the end when this happened,I am trying to live my life now on the good memories,and hope that he knew that I thought there was still hope for his recovery, I am broken beyond belief,but in honour of his memory he would truly not want me to just exist...I started to write most days just saying what was going on,how I felt and so on, and feel in time this may help,please do write on here as and when you can X