Hi I'm Sarah I'm 34 and on the 18th March my mum suddenly passed away aged 67. She was rushed to hospital on the Tuesday as they thought she had a blockage, they operated on the Wednesday, told us the Thursday her abdomen was riddled with cancer, we were there Friday morning when they told her what she had and it was terminal I went back with my sister to see her that evening my sister left the room for a few minutes and my mum passed away. We held her funeral Wednesday. I really don't know how to deal with it, I have bpd too which doesn't help, I feel lost, extremely tired, broken, angry. I'm trying to be strong for my four children but I just want to hide and cry. I don't think I can get through this x